we're going round & round.

I wake up at noon, because my plan for today was to go to the movies, and see "Eclipse" and "Get Him To The Greek". That failed though, because I couldn't get money in time. Which sucks, because it just means that I'm staying home with nothing to do, or anywhere to go.. yet again. When I get on the internet, there's all this Jonas drama over cancelled shows and messed up tour dates. It makes me feel bad, that I was even complaining yesterday. It feels like there's so much going on, I'm losing my self a bit.. all this moody behaviour could just be the result of my "monthly gift"..


I'm testing out a day without the computer, and contact with the outside world. Locked up in my parents' room with my essentials: iPod, cell phone, magazines, and Twilight novel. At least I can say, that I'm actually getting some reading done though. The computer can be so distracting, and has been getting a little boring. If I don't do something exciting soon, my summer might as well be over. I'm wasting it away. Everything good about this month is so far away :( 

• Lady Gaga concert - 9 days
• Ramona & Beezus - 21 days
• 17th Birthday - 26 days

I just don't know what to do with myself. I feel so useless and just, there. It's the weirdest feeling being bored out of your mind.. without a job. Worst of all, no money. I hate having to rely on my mom again.

The only good thing so far, has been seeing the "Round & Round" music video for the first time on Much Music. Music seems to be the only thing getting me through life's obstacles..

xx